woooooooooo. it's 80 degrees here!

just when i think my life is so boring, and inconsequential i am reminded by the grace of gods that movement is not always measured by manifestation but shows itself in feeling and emotions. today i am breathing and remember that i am in love. in love with living. i am alive and no matter what the darkness brings i will stay here until it is time to leave. and for that i am greatful.. my tolerance for pain is increasing by monuments



in one week i am heading back to new york. i cannot wait. i get to ring in the new year in my favorite city, running amok and doing god knows what

then i get to head back to san francisco for wor and record a demo. there is so much movement i don't even want to speak on it yet. i can't wait to see how it all pans out...music, friends, work, city. i am tiring of being in orange county. it's fabulous to hang out with the sister and mother, and go to yoga and sleep and drive and be a bum...but i miss life. i miss the pulse and movement of buses and subways and cold weather. it's been 80 all week and jesus i'm itching to wear my winter coats :)



i miss being alone. the soul is tearing at my skin.



so life brings...what we will see. but it is movement. and more than i often stop to acknowledge. so today, right now, in the middle of a party in rivine, california i am taking a moment to say 'rock on' to relish in the beauty of life that is peaking and lapping on my tongue. i am in love with being alive in this moment. and i thank you, all of you for this.

wooooooooot.



xo

kim

promises. promises.

i know. pictures! you probably think i've been sitting in a white box looking at the wall from my lack of updates

but no no. i've been on the go. and i think this weekend i'll finally post for real.



i was up in sf for a few days this week. the trip was nothing as i had planned, but still wondrous none the less...

tonight i play at the derby which i am so amped for. finally...a real show in los angeles, a venue...goodness. i feel very fortunate to have all these opportunities coming to me. this week i will decide where i will spend the next three months...oh no commitment!!! :) i know my demo will be getting done and from there i can play shows outside of my comfort zone...venturing into unknown states and cities causing a scene...i mean...um....playing music.



i miss new york.

soon...you'll see. keep watching.



xo

kim



ps

if you haven't listened to the new interpol album, DO IT.

brrrrrrr argh argh

i'm in colorado for thanksgiving. there has been snow and chill...lots of coffee and reading. i can't seem to get anything done but i'm learnign to let go of that. looking forward to playing a few shows in december and then finally settling again, getting an apartment and working on my portfolio so i can go back to school. if only i could decide which coast to stay on...

:)

darkness has settled onto my skin. not in a morbid depressing way but in a rainclouds are approaching way. i need some serious alone time and i'm not seeing it in my future since i don't have a pad to call 'home'. so...i suppose i will just have to scratch the surface and keep treading water. and let love slip by again.

:)

nothing much to report. i'm still hibernating in my own way and just might forever or so it feels...looking forward to heading back to sf in a week, i miss so many of you! until then. stay warm.



xo

kim

freedom!

where to even begin. i haven't had a fast internet connection in a long while and thus my lack of motivation to upload pics and review my life...hahah...it'll come just you wait

today i would just like to say happy birthday jeff buckley...we're not doing a tribute show for you today but your memory and meaning still lives in our hearts. your music is still heard...and we still love you! xoxoxoxoxo.



freedom is perhaps the most important word to me these days. i feel its meaning in a more profound way than ever before and deeper than i can explain. there are no more rules for me. there are no more expectations. there is only action and movement and words and they reveal everything and nothing at all. i know i will be going back to school/design program soon and that excites me. i have accepted a show at the derby in los angeles which warms my heart. i was set to play a show in LA by the end of the year and look...it is happening! i've been in so cal a week now...spending time with my friends, touching love and letting it go again...hanging with my sister and my mother...working on websites and reading. i'm heading to colorado for a week for thanksgiving then i am playing shows in san francisco and los angeles then i head back to new york for a bit. i'm hoping to play a show, work a little, hang out with jessica and check out the schools there. i love that my options are sf or nyc. the only two places i'd ever consider living right now. technically i live no where and i love that feeling. it keeps me on my feet and keeps me moving. and i know soon i'll be settled into one city again...or will i?



i know this isn't much of an update but it's all i can give at the moment so take it :)

if you are reading this today, november 17th, 2004, do something for me and listen to a jeff buckley song...take a deep breath and smile. today may there be freedom for everyone...however you may need it.



xoxo

kim

TAUT

HOLY SHIT BATMAN!

PJ HARVEY

last night

warfield

god in the shape of a woman

who rocks and rocks and rocks

that was one of the best performances i have ever seen by anyone

it's rare to want to cry at a show just from the sheer power of the person on the stage!

she even played taut my favorite crazed obsession film noir song. it takes quite a band to play that song...shit one song they even had two drummers going and i thought the sound from the bass drums was going to crush me!

i needed that so much

and even the songs from her new album which i wasn't so exctied about...seeing them live...her...all power and red dress and 4 inch electric blue heels well damn it was hard not to fall in love

a true artist. she sets herself apart by truely delving into the subjects she is writing about and gauging the human psyche... the songs aren't just personal reflections or emotional outlets...they are characters and personalities and behavior animated



okay i'm alright

really

i'll be fine

until i see her again tonight...



:)



xo

kim

deep breath big stretch

yo. i'm house-sitting for john while he's on his honeymoon (the wedding was SOOOO beautiful...) i don't have access on my ibook so i'm not planning on being online much till november

i've just been reading and sleeping and drinking espresso. it's rough...yesterday i did do some painting - eric was out from nyc and we redid his old room (long story). that was actually quite fun! still training to bartend, back for another round tonight...



so much is changing and happening there will have to be one big gigantic update next month. it's going to be insane. i love it!



i definatley miss new york

inspiration is on the rise

and love is creeping towards me

everything is perfect



xo

kim

october 5th

greg hardwick -

we still miss you down here.

there's not enough rock or laughter.