brrrrrrr argh argh

i'm in colorado for thanksgiving. there has been snow and chill...lots of coffee and reading. i can't seem to get anything done but i'm learnign to let go of that. looking forward to playing a few shows in december and then finally settling again, getting an apartment and working on my portfolio so i can go back to school. if only i could decide which coast to stay on...

:)

darkness has settled onto my skin. not in a morbid depressing way but in a rainclouds are approaching way. i need some serious alone time and i'm not seeing it in my future since i don't have a pad to call 'home'. so...i suppose i will just have to scratch the surface and keep treading water. and let love slip by again.

:)

nothing much to report. i'm still hibernating in my own way and just might forever or so it feels...looking forward to heading back to sf in a week, i miss so many of you! until then. stay warm.



xo

kim

freedom!

where to even begin. i haven't had a fast internet connection in a long while and thus my lack of motivation to upload pics and review my life...hahah...it'll come just you wait

today i would just like to say happy birthday jeff buckley...we're not doing a tribute show for you today but your memory and meaning still lives in our hearts. your music is still heard...and we still love you! xoxoxoxoxo.



freedom is perhaps the most important word to me these days. i feel its meaning in a more profound way than ever before and deeper than i can explain. there are no more rules for me. there are no more expectations. there is only action and movement and words and they reveal everything and nothing at all. i know i will be going back to school/design program soon and that excites me. i have accepted a show at the derby in los angeles which warms my heart. i was set to play a show in LA by the end of the year and look...it is happening! i've been in so cal a week now...spending time with my friends, touching love and letting it go again...hanging with my sister and my mother...working on websites and reading. i'm heading to colorado for a week for thanksgiving then i am playing shows in san francisco and los angeles then i head back to new york for a bit. i'm hoping to play a show, work a little, hang out with jessica and check out the schools there. i love that my options are sf or nyc. the only two places i'd ever consider living right now. technically i live no where and i love that feeling. it keeps me on my feet and keeps me moving. and i know soon i'll be settled into one city again...or will i?



i know this isn't much of an update but it's all i can give at the moment so take it :)

if you are reading this today, november 17th, 2004, do something for me and listen to a jeff buckley song...take a deep breath and smile. today may there be freedom for everyone...however you may need it.



xoxo

kim

TAUT

HOLY SHIT BATMAN!

PJ HARVEY

last night

warfield

god in the shape of a woman

who rocks and rocks and rocks

that was one of the best performances i have ever seen by anyone

it's rare to want to cry at a show just from the sheer power of the person on the stage!

she even played taut my favorite crazed obsession film noir song. it takes quite a band to play that song...shit one song they even had two drummers going and i thought the sound from the bass drums was going to crush me!

i needed that so much

and even the songs from her new album which i wasn't so exctied about...seeing them live...her...all power and red dress and 4 inch electric blue heels well damn it was hard not to fall in love

a true artist. she sets herself apart by truely delving into the subjects she is writing about and gauging the human psyche... the songs aren't just personal reflections or emotional outlets...they are characters and personalities and behavior animated



okay i'm alright

really

i'll be fine

until i see her again tonight...



:)



xo

kim

deep breath big stretch

yo. i'm house-sitting for john while he's on his honeymoon (the wedding was SOOOO beautiful...) i don't have access on my ibook so i'm not planning on being online much till november

i've just been reading and sleeping and drinking espresso. it's rough...yesterday i did do some painting - eric was out from nyc and we redid his old room (long story). that was actually quite fun! still training to bartend, back for another round tonight...



so much is changing and happening there will have to be one big gigantic update next month. it's going to be insane. i love it!



i definatley miss new york

inspiration is on the rise

and love is creeping towards me

everything is perfect



xo

kim

october 5th

greg hardwick -

we still miss you down here.

there's not enough rock or laughter.

jesus.

there is soooo much to report

explainations as to why i have over 20 new bruises, teeth marks on the back of my shoulder and a missing toenail

for now let's deal in the short story so i can go to sleep. hopefully after one more day i'llbe recovered and able to do something.



today i had hopes until i ran into joey who i haven't seen in close to 3 years and every time i tried to leave the pizza place he filled up my beer glass so it was impossible to leave. i love reunions :)



pictures of the casualties and craziness from the weekend soon...(hot snakes! dan, sarah, edinburgh, love parade... cute/drunk irish boys named patrick)

and oh yeah

most recently -

catching up with john tonight at the bar down the street...trying to leave...got grabbed and kissed by the resident drunk girl. that was...ah...not so fun. i am only okay initiating that not being bombarded with it. ha. never a dull moment these days

k

nighty night.

love love

kiss kiss



xo

kim

wahahhahahha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay you are ALL in big BIG trouble!!!

everyone i know or have known in the past two years...you are now part of one of my new projects...you have been forewarned

i'm about to put up (finally) photo albums of all the pictures i've been taking in the last few years. this means you. you know who you are.



i took a picture of you at the jeff buckley tribute, at your club deluxe show, at edinburgh castle, at kimos, in new york city, in san franciso, in los angeles, at tongue and groove...drinking whiskey, running down the street screaming, hiding in a booth...on a boat, on the street, at that house party...in a bar. you were drinking, you were laughing, you were kissing me, drunk and reading a book on my floor...you were playing music that made me believe in humanity again...you were dying, living and becoming...you were my friend, my lover, my new aquaintance...we shared tears, smiles, secrets, synchronicity.



i want you to remember. i want to relive. i want to share...soon i will launch these photo albums...nothing fancy...but they will be online, live, and i will send you the link. it will be fun. or you may hate me for sharing. but either way it is happening. and life will expand. and the music will continue.



for now i share the joys from last night.

ben with his marvelous paintings.

dave and i laughing at seeing each other again (thank you muse! hahahha)

and the strange phenomenon of green christmas lights at kimos...wow



















big love and happy birthday to tony today.



xo

kim