honey. honey. honey.

i can't sleep

i swear to god! when did i become an insomniac!?

i've been eating raw unfiltered honey today and it's helping me get better. i'm almost healthy again. physically at least.

i can't help it. i'm feeling haunted. memories are creeping in my window. singing in my ear, lauging at my pillow. i keep seeing the kitchen in my last apartment and the love that was had there - the breath on thanksgiving that i'd never though i'd take.

i'm going to be 26 next week and i still feel as emotionally stunted as i did at 13. and 18. and 21.

but i have to keeep going...i only have a few years left...